Something something, it's been too long.

I'm just so tired all the time, man. And not a day goes by that I'm not experiencing some level of physical pain. I need a vacation.

Aanyway. I'm super duper fucked. It's a matter of the heart. And feelings (love). Not gonna go into precise detail here, but I'm just not a great person, yeah? Love hasn't really worked out for me so far. I keep putting myself in interpersonal situations that are just rough to untangle, and the worst part is that I don't even know how I feel myself! Impossible to figure out what I should do when I can't self-read. Anyway.

I'm probably one of the worst people out there to try to be in a romantic relationship with. But I'm gonna keep trying, and probably keep hurting both myself and the people around me... Ugh. Sometimes I wish I had no interest in romance. Be a lot easier than whatever this is.

Kill me. Make it slow. Make it agonizing. Naught less shall suffice.